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don't sell your heart,

21 September 2009

Selamat Hari Raya 2009!

Happy Eid Mubarak ~ Selamat Hari Raya to all Muslims!!

Ramadhan's over already, and yes i miss ramadhan already.. sigh. Now, its time for Raya celebration! Though this year's not going to be a blast one, atleast im spending it with my family and also syg beside me. Yesterday we were frustrated that our salary havent come out yet, and we had to limit our budget to spend for raya. We went out the whole day today, syg woke me up early in the morning, then we went shopping at Giant :) we met with zayema and the boyfriend for awhile and then continue shopping again. As soon as we went back home, syg helped me to decorate my room, which is a total mess! hehe.. Thanks alot syg ;) if it wasnt for him, i wouldnt care to clean up my room or maybe decorate it even a bit. im too lazy, at times. I just cant wait for tommorow, though im not in the mood for raya.. i hope everything will go well.. amin~
and speaking of after raya.. our recruitment time is coming soon and our things havent been fully prepare. sighhhhhh... and after 2 days of holiday raya.. means its gonna be hectic!!! training from morning till afternoon. erghhhh.... :(

Anyways, syg's ride gonna come out soooooooonn!!!.... Im happy for you syg ;)
and selamat hari raya to you syg, maaf zahir dan batin.. forgive all my wrong doings from the beggining that i met you.. forgive me also for being hard headed and stubborn at times, but yet.. no matter what.. i still love you, and im always going to take care of you and be the best :)

" i love you "

you know i will always be there beside you, no matter what.

16 September 2009

Walking on snow :)

Now im at home blogging while syg is off jogging. im too tired and i just want to do my laundry later, jadi good wifey hehehe. an excellent excuse. oh wondering why im at home? nohhh nohh... im not using my handphone blogging this, me and syg just got ourselves a new broadbandddd :D and soon, syg gonna have his ride soon, hopefully before raya. alhamdulillah, because at first it was hard for him to find his dream and suitable car. first he got dissapointed, and when my dad heard the news.. alhamdulillah.. he helped both of us, though its not his dream car well atleast the car is acceptable. Not gonna mention what car but soon, i will. hehe and now, we just cant wait for the new rideeeee nigggaaahh. hahha. oh and syg also made a lil upgrade with my car. hehehe. it looks better now, and alot have to be done too though. insyallah after my recruitments. Either stay with my current car, or buy a new one. hmmm. im gonna put that at the back of my mind now cause its not that important. Whats important now is im still afraid of thinking that the recruitment thing is getting near and nearer. pfffft! not good oh so not good!

im bored and hungry. Too much thinking made me hungryyyyyyy~ my laundry belum lagi buat. my room is a completely messy! while koko is enjoying his sleep.
im gonna do my laundry and other thing that has to be done before syg comes back.
He'll make that monyet face if i stay infront of the laptop for hours and hoursss hehe. macam monyet pun, i still love you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AZIMAH AMIN @ GMAH BABE!! =D

9 September 2009

Uh-oh! The end is approaching.. so this post gonna be all random because alot has happened.

Me and syg will be entering "the so-called hell place" end of this september, even syg didnt realize that we are already in month of september, time flies so fast. Recruiting for 6 months including with 1 month Quarantine.
Obviously, im gonna miss everyone especially my partners in crime and my other half couzin. awwww. you know who you are ;)
It is somehow nerve wrecking but hey look at the brightside.. its for our own future and i know we're gonna make it.
Thinking that how lucky both of us got in together, out of 5,000++ people who applied for this job. Insyallah.
I still feel grateful and thankful that Allah answered my prayer. Alhamdulillah.
Well actually its not easy as it sounds to do this job. We have alot of exercise to do in so little time and it is restless.
Currently, we didnt do any exercise such as running though, this is to respect the holy month but that doesnt mean we have the chance to relax
because after raya, everythings going to be hectic!! The trainers gonna be so damn fucked up with us. Haha.
So, to stay fit.. we had our runnings done at th stadium with the squad after sungkai. Jogged for 2.4km and 5km and more to go.
Before getting in to the recruit, i had to sacrifice a major change such as no more makeups (thats a good news),
cutting my hair short.. really short-short *oh-no!!* but atleast i get to keep my hair long for raya, getting my skin even darker,
dying my hair black, hmmm atu sudah. and what else?
oh yeah.. getting my braces out, SOON!!!! :DD Hopefully, or another two months to go.

i was pretty excited that we've just received our uniforms today. Rugged ehh but when it comes to practical using the uniform..
Then the meaning of rugged turns to SEKSAAAA!!!!! hhahhaaa. True because the fabric is soooooo thick. Imagine, you are standing
in the middle of the place with a very hot hot weather for several hours. How would you feel?? Thats how we feel when we got in for the recruitments. Tahan or nda tahan, tahan saja tia. Like syg always advice me, 'kalau org boleh buat, kenapa you nda?' So its in my head all the time. We got in together doesnt mean that we're gonna go for a date. We dont show our love to others but infact like we're just closed friends. There's some part we show our love to each other and the other part we really hate eachother. Lols!

Right now, im enjoying everything life has to offer to me before the day comes.
Unfortunately, we both going to miss out for another upcoming event beach party at Labuan

"Manikar Beach Party Vol.4 - Escape to Paradise" for 3 days 2 nights.

well thats another sacrifice for us! haha. Atleast
we came the last event Manikar Beach Party Vol.3 - Soul Revive. So we had to put aside our party life from now on then.. and another party after our passing out! Cant wait for that one! :D:D

Syg's not sleeping over at my place today, he's sleeping over at his friends house. I think i do really need to give him some space, but what about my space? Ni nah melayan kucing syg si kokoronotomo tidur at my room. YES, he sleeps ALL THE TIME! what else he do rather than sleep?
EAT!! Hahah, Koko eats and sleeps only. He doesnt wants to play. More and less the same as GARFIELD!
Atu pasalnya badannya macam giuk sudah hahhaahha. whenever im sasak, ill call him.. si bagak! hahah pasal badannya basar.
Just that he's not Orange in colour.

We havent been hanging around with the G.A's lately and im missing them when i started to reminisce the time we all spend timew together everyday.
Everyone's been busy since we started with our training. The last timewe hang out was on 5th September, Azme's Birthday.
Happy Birthday again, Azmeeee... NYEK!! hahahha. Atupun Pyan and gmah wasnt around :(
Well, next time saja.. yes? hehe. Syg was kinda annoyed banyak orang ucap ia hitam sudah. haha. kesian you syg.. Hugs.
Me belum lagi nie.. tunggu tah recruit barutah. hahaha.

I think im going to hit the sack soon but before that i have to prepare my things for tommorow!

as always, love you syg :)

23 August 2009

Holy Month for all muslims started last Saturday and along way to go for Hari Raya Celebration. I am just not ready for both of it and i still cant believe that its already month of Ramadhan. hmmm... i still think that it is still around April or May.

Dont complain too much that i dont usually update my blog nowadays and im only updating when i feel i want to blog plus there's always a stalker or stalker(s) that like to know my updated life so they can take advantage of it. Eff-U! Mind you, i dont stalk you my dear.. why would i care anyway? its just soooo predictable. Hiding yourself from me so that i dont know what you did? You're totally wrong. Its hilarious how would you easily talk the talk and yet you still bugging us. If you still got your brain inside your head, think for yourself twice because no one will think for you if you're still stubborn. I'm getting old for this shit already. So much had happened in so little time. Updates?

Finally, Me and syg got accepted in "Jabatan Bomba Dan Penyelamat". All the effort, we got through together and its all because of syg that i kept on trying. Remember your promise when you dared me if i get in? hehhe.. im not putting too much hope into it but.. promise is still a promise between us :) Apparently, when there's good news always have a bad news. I had to resign 24hours from my current job. damn. it was hard though leaving the office. One year plus i have been serving the company, through thick and thin as well but what the heck.. government or private? I rather choose government. So yeah, 24hours resignation means no salary for this month. Curse you~ hhahaha. Oh well, lucky it was AFTER THE MANIKAR PARTY. Speaking of Manikar, It was Extremely FUN!!!! Mun nda, soberrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~~~ haha. Masa First time melapor, some of the staff knew that we were together. manakan.. asal dimana-mana, sama sama. "kamu ani sama sama kah? sepasangkah?" syg just laughed and i smiled. Syg made his first move by saying yes and then it went on and on to the rest. Even our squad (meaning the same group with us who got accepted also) and the Trainers knew. We just keep it lay low inside when working. Our time is packed with running and others. Its not easy as it sounds. One week we both have terrible muscle cramps. We had cream for muscle pain all over the body. LOL. not really all over though.. there's just some part of it. Then the next day went on and on and we both get used to it. No more muscle pain. yeay. hehhe. I heard that this is just the basics of the recruit training and more to come when we finally have our recruit training session for 6 months starting after raya, insyallah. Ani sudah kan menangis rasanya.. bepanas and all.. apatah lagi recruit nanti.

Not forgetting, last wednesday me and the selected squad went on "Jungle Tracking" at Tasek Lama. Syg wasnt selected and stayed at the Pusat Latihan doing the chores. I doubted that i could reach at the end but finally, i get through. Actually we suppose to head to Markucing but since the Komandan and the rest thinks that its already late. So we use the shortcut and head back to Tasek Lama. We took 2 hours of Jungle Tracking. I can say it was craaaaaaaaaaazyy since i am scared of height and i got through my fear atlast tapi nda meliat kebawah plng tu. hahahha.

Tommorow our training will start again since we had our 3 days off and right now im at KB at syg's nini house. sleepover and sungkai here. Syg bought me an icecream and im gonna have my ice cream now and signing off.

nyum nyum :P

6 August 2009

Currently i'm at Amal and Zyan's place, lepak sekejap. Me and syg just got back from Weststreet. Distributing and selling the tickets for Manikar. One more day to go. yehhaaaa... well, i'm not so excited looking forward to it, but yeah.. im just gonna have fun with syg and ignore the outsiders. Just don't mess with me, then i'm all good. :)

Hmmm.. The weather condition nowadays is getting worst with the haze but thank god, it finally rains just now, eventhough it was just alittle bit. Syg went to KB with usu this morning, too bad i can't join them and meet his grandparents :( but its okay. There's always a next time. Atleast syg finally get to meet his grandparents there. Batah dah ia mengingul kan balik KB, just that both of us didnt have enough time and rest. hehe. Even now, both of us didnt have enough rest dari tadi pagi. I had to go to work while syg had to accompany usu to KB. Then from KB, syg had to pick me up from work and went straight to the Mall, and end up here. hehe. Ngalih2 pun, atleast im always with him :) Thats the good thing though sometimes we fight and then end up laughing together. I'm starting to miss Koko. heheh si Gemok!

Love you always, yngo~

31 July 2009

Nice to be back!

I'M BACK, BITCHES.. oops, i mean, READERS. hehehehe. I dont know why i feel like blogging now but yea, im typing now so i'm just gonna carry on then. well its 2.15am now and im not yet asleep. LOL. Currently i'm having a triple fun tonight @ Tutong with the family and the rest, had a drunken and a good laugh tonight playing games. Before that, we had BBQ and Steamboat for dinner at Kaka Fina's house. Uncle's cooking was totally delicious! Especially the Tiger prawn! Nyummy! Thanks Ka and Uncle! After that, we all had smoke break in a smoking room and uncle decided to play a game which all MUST participate! I haven't laugh so hard since god knows when. Hahah. Another next gathering again, yes? but but..... i had to go to work tommorow, eh i mean later. sigh. super tired and sober!
Syg and the rest are still playing scramble now with a dizzy mode and im busy blogging. Sekajap lagi balik lah kali... huhu.

hmm... whats new? oh yeah, alhamdulillah.. Thanks to Allah for answering my prayer, me and syg got in for BOMBA. Hope everything goes well for the medical checkup but im scared to go through the recruit. I'm just NOT FIT ANYMORE! Sigh. ~~The month of July~~ haven't been treating me so well and i really had a very very hectic life. Im not going to mention but who knows about it just keep it quiet. If yang nda tau cerita, jangantah sibuk and diam saja.. bebau saja mulut. Thank god i survived all the dramas but i tell you, it wasn't easy.. just like a rollercoaster ride. Only god knows, and hopefully nothing more worst going to happen, again. Im sick, Im tired, Im stressed, Im fucked up.. so please, dont add it up anymore.
I'm going to let it all be for now since someone backed off, as what stated between me and you know who you are. So its all good and between me and you now is a fullstop, but dont forget there's always a BUT.

UNLESS there's someone trying to mess with me. Thats okay but never underestimate what i can do when i lose it, so that means you're asking for trouble. I won't be such a bitch if someone didnt start it at the first place, so mind that..

Especially, si HANTU GIGI SUNGANG. you might think that i dont know whats going on. well thats cool. Just wait and see, i'm not going to sit down and keep quiet. DAMAI!!

I believe there's going to be a silver lining for me after all ive been through.

ehhhh.. im talking nonsense now. ehhhhh mengapa bangang!! i think thats it. i'm out of words.
I will update when i feel like blogging again. Hehe.
ohh yeah, i can't wait for the beach party "Manikar Beach Party Resort Vol.3"
*counting* 8 days more to go.
So yea, i hope there's no more trouble going to happen now. G.A Family, we're going to rock manikar hard! Yeaaaahhh!! Eh.. Behapa smangat..??? Lol.

STAY ALERT:

Wristband check up upon entrance everywhere & "PARTY CRASHERS WANNABE" will be remove by the security itself and i'll be LMAO!

see you all party animals there!!

28 June 2009

piece of shit.

You sure know how to talk big shits behind my back about bitch slapping me or whatever makes you sound tough in your fb nor your blog but in reality, you're just a piece of coward asshole. See who ran away like a chicken ass when i approached you? Predictable, very! Nice move bitch but pity you, you're trying too hard its pathetic and you actually make yourself look more stupid. Such a big NO-NO. If you're trying to drag me down under, let me tell you.. It doesnt work on me neither this relationship. Better luck next time, kid. Which part of 'MOVE ON WITH YOUR OWN LIFE' dont you understand? Dont try to teach people how to live their life when you, yourself cant live your life perfectly. It aint going to work your way this time, u had your chance and you blew it. Should you back the hell off of our life or actually you want me to make it worse for you..

Now tell me, you want the easy way or the effing hard way?

Yeah, u're way better.. Better being a stupid fugly asshole. Dont flatter yourself yet sweetheart and dont tell me, i didnt warn you.

I dont get mad with no reason at all unless someone's trying to mess with me first. So, you mess with the wrong person here and i'll makesure you pay all the damages.

So how my slippers taste like? Chocolate?

8 June 2009

Hello hello! Buka seluar nampak telor! LOL! Hahahah! Okay.. Okay.. I got that from someone.

Oh yeah, MISS MEEE??? Heheh. Does it irritates you whenever you open this blog, there's still no update? Haha. Pasalnya i havent blog anything yet lah! Haha. Ive been a busy bee lately lorr.. with works and all. Eventhough i have freetime but im just too lazy to blog. I've been 'missing in action' in my own blog but i've been bloghopping other bloggers alot. Not much happened though but im sure i have some good stories to spill but im not going to update anything right now. Haha. Buat suspend sikit ha.. :p im going to hit the sack soon because tommorow's monday and monday means WORK! Heheh. Oh yeah, syg's here right now.. so i better go.

Thats it for now.

you are really super funny loser.

30 May 2009

Cindy Bernadette feat Gege - Sakit Sendiri

Ada yang kurasa dari dirimu Kau kini menjauh, apa salahku Apakah ku menyakiti hatimu Katakan padaku, jangan membisu

**
Kau kini berbeda jauh
Dari [lelaki/wanita] yang dulu membuatku jatuh cinta
Siapa yang telah merubahmu
Untuk meninggalkanku

***
Bila engkau harus pergi Tinggalkan saja ku sendiri Jangan bilang masih cinta Kau hanya membuatku menangis

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Untuk apa bilang sayang
Buat hatiku makin susah
Pergilah kasih pergi saja
Biar aku sakit sendiri

Walaupun harus berpisah
Takkan kulupakan engkau
Yang pernah ada di dalam hidupku

Tak mungkin aku memaksa
Kalau memang cinta tlah sirna
Mungkin ini yang terbaik

Back to Reff:*** dan ****

Back to Reff:***

Untuk apa bilang sayang
Buat hatiku makin susah
Pergi kasih pergi saja
Biar aku sakit sendiri

loving this song :')

27 May 2009

and still counting..

Happy 5years 5months Anniversary to us today sygku! :D ♥

as always, i will be saying to you this out loud..

I love you, still.. More each and everyday.. No matter what.. And you know it. :)

Syg wanted to bring me out after work for our Anniversary today and we didnt know that the girls going to
invite us out again today. hehhe. so we had a last minute change of plans and went out with the girls again
because Hjh zimah invited us to her uncle's house for 'makan-makan'. So we waited koi and the rest to pick both of us
at syg's place and then we dropped by for awhile at Keboy's since syg was REALLY hungry and tapau-ed Burger and Roti John
before coming to hjh zimah's uncle place eventhough we're going to eat again over there. hehe. We had ambuyat for dinner at
hjh zimah's uncle place. Great idea! haha because i was craving for ambuyat since.... long time? heheh. All of us were really stuffed..
next is 'Kareoke Time'. Syg was really embarassed to sing infront of the girls and others but at last, nyanyi jua, with me. hheheh.
As what john said, 'This is what bruneian do after eating, Kareoke?' hahah'. Hjh Zimah's nenek was there as well, she had a story telling session
and all of us focused on her with her interesting storylife. We could've spend hours listening to her but sadly
we had to go off since it was pretty late. We went home around 11 and again, tired & sleepy. :D